Why not have another honest travel blogs post? I know you guys love when I write about what truly is on my mind… And trust me, there is a whole lot. Let’s start off with how I‘ve spent my last week being home in Canada. I wanted to get as much time in with my little peanut as possible, so my sissy, nephew and I took off to cottage country for the past two weeks. We had some fires, sunshine, rain, sandy beaches and bat attacks – But we survived and had a fabulous time. There’s nothing like walking into a room and having him look at you with a giant smile.
My nephew is growing every single day, and he has a new sound or action that comes along with each and I am crying inside knowing that I have to leave on for some more outdoor adventures on a road trip to Florida because when I come back, he will be standing! It’s amazing watching him. Children have such an innocence to them that, as adults, we forget to have. They have no worries in the world, except whether or not there is poopy in their diapers. Who wishes they could go back to having no care in the world? I wish I only worried about poopy in my pants… However, I worry about that amongst plenty of other things. Kidding. (Not really). Fun fact… I pooped my pants when I was in kindergarten and my family still teases me about it on a weekly basis. There’s more to the story but we won’t go there.
Enough of the poop! Let’s talk about some real sh!t. I have been trying to keep myself as busy as possible to keep my mind off of my road trip to Florida because unlike last time, it has a totally different feeling. As I mentioned in a previous post, I have to go back to get my things because I’m an idiot and didn’t question anything in my life. However, I still love Florida and I know that the sunshine will make me wish to never come home again.
I’m so nervous though because when I left Florida, I was in a completely different spot in my life – A totally different life than what it is now, with me going back. I left, with no worry in the world. I had it all. I felt fabulous. I was happy. I spent every day with the people who made me smile and laugh all the time, and it was fabulous.
I am a strong believer in everything happens for a reason, but sometimes when you want something bad enough, you have to push for it. Nothing worth having comes easy… And going back to Florida to get my things and see my friends and to say my goodbyes will be what I need to move forward. I can’t really elaborate because although my life is public, some things close to my heart need to stay there. So if you’re one of those asking, join the long list of my family and friends who have heard my classic, “I don’t want to talk about it”.
It’s no secret that I have been very hurt by the way things have unraveled, but as I head back on a road trip to Florida, to the sandy shores and outdoor adventures that made me fall in love with the sunshine state…. I fear that it will be pouring salt on my open wound. Let’s see how this goes…! Cheers to Canada, I’m off on another adventure.